I’m going to just share my heart in this post, so if you’re really not into that, feel free to skip this one. It isn’t exactly light-hearted.
The last two and a half years have been hard, but not often anxiety-filled. Sure, we have had stressful things come up: submitting my letter of resignation, leaving our kids behind for our site visit, packing our shipping container… but for the most part, we’ve been able to trust the Lord, His ways, and His timings.
These trials didn’t really feel trial-y because we knew God was in control and we knew He is trustworthy. We still absolutely believe those things.
But the last few days, I have been feeling anxious about how things will work out over the next few months. Will France begin issuing the visas we need or not? Will we have other options available to us? How will our kids handle moving again? How can we get 10 pieces of luggage, 5 people, and 3 car seats through four airports next month when we travel? What will it be like living in a brand new state? Will we be able to pick up French during that program?
I can’t see how God will work it out. I know He will, but I can’t see it.
The Holy Spirit reminded me of that passage in Exodus 14, when the Israelites are fleeing Egypt and get trapped between Pharaoh’s army and the sea. I don’t think they could see a resolution that left them flourishing in God’s plan, much less alive.
But here’s the thing: In verse 14, Moses tells the people, “The Lord will fight for you. You need only to be still.”
And He did, didn’t He? God put Himself between the Israelites and the Egyptians all night long. He pushed the sea apart so dry ground appeared. He lead His people through. And then when the Egyptians tried to follow the next morning, God threw them into such a disarray and panic that even the wheels on their chariots stopped working.
Melissa, the Lord will fight for you. You need only be still.
And He can, can’t He? He can open international borders. He can provide for quick language acquisition. He can calm anxious hearts and minds and easily get all those suitcases and totes through airports and into cars. He can lead us to a new coffee shop, help us make new friends at church, and keep us from getting lost in an unknown city.
So I’m preaching that to myself.
God will fight for me. But I have got to sit down, be still, and stop pretending to have it all together. He is more than capable of doing abundantly more than all I can ask or imagine, according to His power at work within me.
So with that…
Current Prayer Requests:
- Allen is preaching and teaching for the rest of this month at Bonanza Community Church. Pray that God will use him mightily.
- As we approach some pretty frequent transitions, pray for our kiddos. Leaving Oregon will be hard on them, as will moving from place to place every month or so.
- Next week, Allen and I are going to a ministry retreat on the Oregon Coast! We are super excited. You can pray that it is just a refreshing time for us.
- As I mentioned above, I have been feeling really anxious about the next few months, to the point that it is disrupting my sleep. Pray for peace that passes understanding and that I will be still so God can move in His ways.
- We’d love to be in France by late-December. Please pray that will happen, according to God’s will.
On-Going Prayer Requests:
- For God’s will and timing for the remainder of 2020 and early 2021.
- For ministry opportunities now, in France, and in Togo.
- For spiritual growth in our individual lives and in our family and for our kids’ salvation.
- Quick understanding of and surprising success in French (and Kabiye) when we begin our studies.
- Smooth shipping and receiving of our container. It is currently being stored in Alaska and we plan to ship it when language school in France is nearly over.
- For teammates getting settled in Togo, that God will bless their ministries and the Togo Central Team.
Thanks for praying, friends.